Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to (826)

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someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to

Dear year 10 girl,

It's been a while since we really talked to each other properly. In all honesty, I don't know how we drifted .. But that happened a long time ago. We were actually really, really close friends at one point. Bfflz. Everything. We used to fold A4 looseleaf papers into quarters and then write messages and chuck them to each other every lesson at Chinese school. I think that annoyed my sister, tbh. And remember that time I stepped on a chair and it overbalanced and I fell over? And that time when you ate a bubble cuz they smelt like bubblegum but actually tasted so gross? And when your sister saw you in the playground and chased you for like 5 minutes straight and you actually ran for the whole time? I've never seen you run that much. :o LOL jokes. :D But we used to be so close, and now we're just down to awkward conversations on Friday nights that only last for, what, 15 minutes at the longest? I miss you. School sport last term made us closer, I guess, but only by a bit. School sport was fun, I liked that group. :D And we used to play I Never but it didn't really work cuz the drink we mixed up wasn't actually gross and was actually really nice. LOL. People have asked me why I don't hate you. :I It'd be weird if I was still holding it against you. What happened in year 8 probably made us drift further but we were already far from each other at that point .. I still remember CF07. :o

♥ Genevieve

Your Favourite Internet Friend (821)

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your favourite Internet friend

Dear person I don't really talk to except for on MSN,

Okay, people might think that it's weird that I'm choosing you as my favourite Internet friend, but it's not like favourite, it's just that when we talk on MSN we usually talk a lot. And also, I'm trying not to repeat people that much, LOL.

Anyway, I haven't really talked to you that much recently. You used to annoy me a lot by the way, and I guess that's why .. I don't know, maybe that's why we weren't really ever close in real life. I don't know if people would figure out who this is and you might not even figure out yourself. Great letter, am I right? LOL. I'm trying to think what I would say to you if I was online right now .. Which I don't know why I'm not but I'm not, lol, and I don't really know what I'd say. Um. Oh, okay, something I'm kinda jealous about you is that it's like you always have money. As in, why do you always have so much money. :( You're not like mega intense rich or something, but Idk, it's always like you buy expensive stuff. LOL.

I like most of the looks you hype on Lookbook and I think some of your clothes are nice, but some of the stuff you put together isn't my style.

♥ Genevieve

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your ex-boyfriend

Dear ex-boyfriend,

There's not much point in trying to hide who this is cuz everyone knows. Some people actually thought I went out with my last 'big' crush but no wai man, we never went out. I don't know what to say to you but there's not really much to say.

We haven't really talked much since May 2009. I think sometimes I've maybe been a bit harsh on you, saying that the day I broke up with you was the best day ever, but yeah that could maybe be a bit over the top? I still actually remember a lot of things in detail, tbh. Like I remember it really, really well. I remember that, funny thing, first person I actually told, person that didn't know about it until I told them, is no one other than my current boyfr. What a coincidence.

Anyway, kinda weird, but just before I was thinking about our first date. Well, not really what happened, just that I had to come to you, and not you to come to me, and that I had to pay for everything but I think you might've paid for my movie ticket but oh, maybe not, maybe you paid for part of it but maybe you didn't. Um so yeah I was thinking about that and thought, Wow what a dick, I had to come to him and I had to pay for everything. LOL. Well like I guess it was reasonable cuz we were going Mac Sq, but whatever man, you could've paid for everything anyway. But yeah, everyone knows what happened that day, haha. :I

Um so we haven't really talked properly since your/Aldrich's birthday party and Idk, I don't think you've changed that much? But I haven't hung around with you for the past couple of months so what can I say. Sometimes I think, maybe we can still be friends cuz like it's not that awkward when we talk, it's probs just like we don't know what to talk about cuz o rite, we broke up cuz you're a lying cheating dick so things are awkward and we haven't talked normally since I dumped you a few days before I turned 14. So even though maybe we could still talk normally sometimes, we're not going to be friends. Like that's just never going to happen and like okay yeah I don't really mind if it doesn't. :I Just sayin'.

I was really stupid to get back with you. It was kinda cool though, how our relationship was pretty good the first time round -- we never had fights, not even arguments, and we kept that up for 7 months. And then yeah you kissed Angela and you weren't even the one that told me and what the fuck was I thinking, getting back together with this slut who was maybe even shorter than me back then but I still did. It was maybe the best day ever when I dumped you. It was like fucking freeing a bird from a cage. Could fucking talk to anyone, and stay up way late talking to my bfflz all night while your fucken clingy ass was like sleeping or some shit, without you coming up to me the next day. I would have to make up bullshit answers when you'd ask what time I slept. And after we broke up I probz was a bit harsher than normal. Cuz apparently you were like, Can we even be friends and I said, No, but I don't remember that too well but Kabhi said that you said that I said that, so okay. Just sayin', you're a dick and I really don't think this letter is going to raise the chance of us ever being friends again but whatever. Slut. :I

♥ Genevieve

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Okay, so while Nick is in the shower, I'm sitting here in his room with not much to do except for go on the computer and whatever. I made this scrapbook for Nick .. I really like it, LOL. I started it at 2am and finished at around 6:20am, f yeah. :I

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a stranger

Dear stranger, wherever you are in the world,

I don't know what to say to you. This letter is probably going to be very awkward, but okay, I'll just introduce myself. My name is Genevieve and I'm 15. Um,

Typically, I wouldn't talk to strangers. That would sound reasonable, why would you talk to strangers? What's telling you that they're not dangerous, how do you know if you can trust them? But that's not really what I mean. When people serve me at counters or bus drivers or just people like that .. Idk, I don't really talk to them much. LOL. I think I'm just like shy cuz all I really say to them is just Thanks! :D with a full smile or something. :D I talked to a stranger yesterday. Or more like, they initiated conversation and I replied and yeah. I don't think she really liked me, tbh .. But I asked her which bus I should go on, and when I got off the bus I said thanks to her and the bus driver and she smiled so maybe she didn't think I was weird or something. I also asked the people behind me which road we were on, but oh yay they didn't know where we were either. LOL.

Stranger, maybe one day we'll actually talk. But that's unlikely, since I don't know who this letter is addressed to.

♥ Genevieve

12:59pm (3/07/10)

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your dreams

Dear dreams,

I think the topic of this letter could be interpreted differently to different people. Does it mean your dreams, like the ones you have when you sleep? Or dreams as in what you want to be, your goals, your wants? I totally have no idea. But since I don't remember the dreams I have while I sleep, I guess I'll just do it like how Eugene did and address the letter to the things I wish could come true.

Maybe this will be more of a heart to heart kinda post, something more deep and meaningful (i.e. DNM). To be honest, I don't think I've told anyone this before, ever. It's not like a secret or anything but it's just a bit weird to say that almost every single night for the past 4, 5 or possibly 6 years, I've taken time out of my night to think about all the things I really want, all the things I would change if I could change anything I wanted. That sounds a bit fucked up like that. Hm, I guess I'm just trying to say that every night for the past couple of years, I've been wishing for things to happen. What I wish for changes over time (like things that are happening recently in my life) but some things have stayed the same since the beginning. I don't really know if I expect these things to come true, ever .. But if they don't then I guess I'll maybe feel a bit disappointed. So maybe I do believe they'll come true one day. I'm not sure if anyone's out there listening to me, though.

I don't think people would really guess/know what I wish for unless they asked me. That doesn't mean that I have fucked up dreams and shit. I don't think people would think I think about these things every night. Some nights, I don't even think about it -- the voice in my mind runs on its own and no emotion is put into it. That sounds weird. Thinking about my dreams and shit like this, though .. It kinda makes me feel bad, realising that I don't really put any effort into it sometimes. These are the things I want, well, some of the things I would do anything for .. And I'm losing motivation and determination and perseverance and everything? I need to think about what I'm doing.

Please come true.

♥ Genevieve

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your siblings

Dear Genvin and Steph,

After years of school, after talking with my friends and stuff, I realised that as brothers and sisters we have a pretty good relationship. We get along well and we talk to each other a lot. We don't argue or fight, not even when we're pissed at each other, I think. Cuz all I'd do is have a little bitch about it to one of my friends but whatever, we all do that, right. LOL. Some people have asked me who I'm closer to, my brother or my sister. Honestly, I have no idea. I guess I'd think Genvin, possibly because the age gap is smaller, but it's not like I don't talk to my sister and it's not like we don't have much to talk about.

I remember this one time last year when I really pissed my mum off. Um, I honestly don't remember what it was about anymore, but I think it was about school photos and I swear I'd given the envelope to her but then on the night before I couldn't find it, so no idea where it went, and then I asked her and I was like annoyed already and she was annoyed already .. Okay wait this was another time, dw. LOL.

Okay, point is, I remember this one time last year when it was like one of the rare occasions where I've really pissed my mum off. Like she hasn't been as pissed at my brother or sister or anyone else, yeah, that's how pissed off I made her. :s Anyway so I just got this mega long lecture/telling off/whatever and like everyone in the house knew about it lol and yeah so I was sitting on my bed, after 'everything was over' kinda thing i.e. when my dad stopped telling me off and got out of my room and I was sitting on the bed and crying, and all the time while I was getting told off, it was in my room, and Genvin was ironing the clothes in the laundry, which is next to my room. Anyway so I was crying and yeah so when my parents went away, he came in and sat on the bed next to me and he's like, Are you okay? and patted my head. :) And then my mum walked past my room and was like, Why are you comforting her? and then he got involved in the whole fight thingo and my dad came as well and I think my sister might've as well, so yeah, cool story, bro.

I guess I kinda have a lot of fun with Genvin. Like, both of us act really stupid together and make bad jokes and Idk, go Coles or Woolworths together and take 45 minutes to figure out what lollies or chips we wanna get, full contemplating and shit, LOL. He also edits my crappy English practice essays and stupid short stories, and makes me feel dumb cuz there's always all this stuff that's wrong with it. :( And I show him stupid Harry Potter macros that I find on Tumblr, LOL. Genvin's friends like Dannis and Stephen are cool too, so it's fun when they're over. Maybe not Dannis cuz like uh, LOL, he's kinda annoying sometimes and Stephen's like funnier. :D But yeah, we get along pretty well, right?

Okay I just realised that most of my 'letters' aren't exactly letters, they're more like .. just saying my relationship and what I think about them. What a bad letter.

I'm sorry I don't listen to you all the time, Steph. You talk to me about Masterchef, or maybe you're annoyed at something or I don't know, just stuff, and I don't listen a lot of the time. Like just then, you were telling me that story about some stripper or something and .. Okay I don't know what happened, cuz I didn't listen. :( Sorry. I think sometimes you've realised that I'm not really listening to you, but I think part of the reason why I don't listen to you all the time is because I used to talk to you and you didn't really listen, like didn't listen as in you think I'm talking to someone else kinda thing. I guess mine's a bit worse, because you expect me to talk to you, to say something in response, and I don't know what you're really talking about because I'm not listening, and all I end up doing is like, Mm .. Yeahh .. and just agree with you kinda thing. But I'm just saying, it's not like I always don't listen to you, I still listen to you and we still talk properly so yeah. :D I realised that sometimes we don't have anything to talk about. When we went to Livo on Friday and Saturday, the bus rides home were just quiet .. But I guess that's cuz both of us were tired, cuz yeah, I was tired, LOL. I can't really remember a time where you specifically have helped me out.. LOL.

I really love both of you. Genvin, I really hope you do something good in uni and I hope you do well in your HSC this year. Just saying, you shower for too long sometimes and like wtf I have 10 minutes OR LESS to shower and get ready and get to the bus stop? FML. But I really hope you do well in your HSC this year, please study more and be more motivated. :( Steph, I'm sorry I'm not a good listener when you need one. You've almost finished uni, I wonder what you're going to do when you're done. I hope you're happy with yourself right now and that you're doing something you enjoy. By that, I mean cooking and just .. Lol, I just hope you're happy right now. :D

♥ Genevieve

(5:07pm 29/06/10)

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your parents

Dear Mum and Dad,

This is the kind of letter that I would never really say to you or give to you in person. Unless it was something that was on like a Mother's Day or Father's Day card, or something like that. I know you probably .. don't like the way I am most of the time. And I know that I'm usually really bitchy, like if I have to repeat something or explain something then I know I'm probably really bitchy and get really pissed off about it. Especially to my mum. Sorry, Mum. :s

I'm 15 and I can totally tell that we've drifted. Car rides to and from Truong are almost always silent. And I realised the only time I talk to my dad in the car is if there's some new technology (e.g. iPhone 4) or if I got an exam mark or my report or something like that back. With my mum, maybe we'd talk more about other stuff, but all I can think of is just grades and the future, like what I'm going to do in uni and what I wanna be when I grow up. There's not much to say, and I kinda miss having long conversations with you. Sometimes I think that maybe yeah, you're kinda strict about that and it really pisses me off. Honestly, get my lobe piercings when I'm 21, finished uni? Are you serious? It's things like that, things like getting piercings and dying my hair .. You are just totally against it. Completely. 100% negative. I guess maybe my mum is a bit more lenient about these things, well at least about piercings .. But maybe it's just cuz you're kinda scared what would happen if I did get piercings and did dye my hair. I remember having a conversation with Mum once, and I said, So you think if I dye my hair then I'm gonna take drugs as well? and she didn't say anything. It's things like that, like .. Do you seriously think I'm going to take drugs and jig and fricken ruin my life + future once I'm allowed to get my first piercings or dye my hair? Cuz that's just cut, what kind of person do you think I am.

I kinda lie too much about things. Especially going out. And I guess that the reason why we've drifted so much is because I don't tell you things anymore. I don't tell you what I get for assessments, even if they are good marks. I don't tell you what I get in topic tests because I don't really think they're important. I don't tell you when I'm going to have Truong tests. I don't tell you what I get for my Truong tests (but that's not cuz you'd rage cuz you wouldn't >:D). I don't tell you where I'm really going (which is to the city, not Parra). I don't tell you that I stay up until at least 12:30am every day. I haven't told you about Nick, but I know you think we're together anyway. I don't tell you the proper date when my assignments are due. I don't tell you about the parties I don't go to, so you think I go to all the parties people have because I ask about the ones I end up going to. I don't tell you about Cross Country or Athletics until the day before or on the day. I don't tell you that I get off at the stop before station so I can buy coffee or hot chocolate before school. I don't tell you when I go shopping. I don't tell you when I buy new things anymore. I just don't tell you things anymore, so you don't even know things about me anymore. I'm sorry. :( It actually really annoys me when you book my orthodontist appointments for me. Of all things, I don't know why, but that really annoys me for some reason. LOL.

At Truong, we've been told many times that we have to remember where we came from, and that our parents do so much for us, we don't even know. I'm sorry I don't really have this in my mind all the time. I know that I won't ever realise all the things you do for me, the things you don't tell me, the things you don't want me to know. I'm sorry I'm such a bitch to both of you all the time. Thank you for taking care of me for the past 15 years and for putting up with all the shit I give you. I'm sorry my phone bills were crazy high at one point. I'm sorry I don't tell you things anymore. I'm sorry my Canto really sucks now because I don't talk to you in Canto. I'm sorry I didn't put effort when I went to Chinese school and now I'm really wishing I could speak Mandarin. I'm sorry I'm not like the smartest kid out. I'm sorry I maybe care more than I should about looks and fashion. I'm sorry I spend my money on stupid things. I'm sorry I go on the computer too much. I'm sorry I don't do any physical activity anymore besides at school, even though you tell all our relatives and friends that I'm so skinny because I work out and do haps of sport. I'm sorry I always look pissed off at home. I'm sorry I want so many things. I'm sorry I wanted all these piercings and wanted to dye my hair. I'm sorry I'm a really picky eater sometimes, so it's kinda hard to cook for me because Idk if I'd like it. I'm sorry I eat too much unhealthy food. I'm sorry I maybe swear too much or more than you'd like me to. I'm sorry I'm so messy and that my room hasn't been clean and tidy in like months. I'm sorry I maybe buy too much. I do. I'm sorry I want to go out so much and I get pissed or cut when you don't let me. I'm sorry I talk back to both of you too much. Maybe not my dad but I don't know. I'm sorry I stay up way too late and you have to watch me from the heater to make sure I get off the computer at a reasonable time. I'm sorry I'm maybe going out with Nicholas and I know you don't wantm e to have a boyfriend until after highschool or in uni or after uni. Okay, I am going out with him. I'm sorry I've made you lose trust in me at times. I'm sorry for making you get pissed off at you so many times. I'm sorry I drink iced coffee. I'm sorry I don't talk to both of you properly anymore. I'm sorry we haven't had a proper conversation in a long time. I'm sorry I don't do the things I'm supposed to do. I'm sorry I haven't done the laundry in a while and you end up having to do it. I'm sorry you have to pay for a lot of my stuff. I'm sorry you have to drive me places sometimes, like to Truong and the random times I need to go Officeworks or something. I'm sorry I can't say these things to you in person.

Thank you for pushing me so much with studies and everything. Thank you for making me learn to swim when I was a kid. Thank you for buying me food and taking care of me. Thank you for letting me go out so much last term and kinda this term. Thank you for letting Nick come over a few times and for letting him stay over for dinner. Twice. Thank you for letting me choose my subject for year 11 myself. But you told me to do chem but yeah, okay, I don't mind. Thank you for still giving me my allowance. Thank you for not taking my phone at night anymore. Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for letting me be independent. Thank you for doing things and taking time out of your day so I can do things I wanna do, or get things I wanna get.

I'm sorry I'm not the kinda of ideal daughter every parent would wanna have. I wouldn't really say this to you in real life because I think it's kinda weird, but I love you both. I don't think we've hugged in like years, but maybe we have, I don't know, lol. Thank you for helping me become the person I am today.

A lot of this letter is actually listing. So maybe it's not that interesting to read, but I don't know. I'm scared of so many things, but I don't tell you. Because I hardly talk to you anymore. I wish we were closer, I really do. I hope that in the future we'll become close. And what I'm really scared of but I can almost guarantee this, is that I'll regret everything I'm doing right now. Why am I wasting time being such a bitch to people that love me, and that I love? I don't know. And I'm scared that by the time I really realise that age isn't forever and that time is running out, it'll be too late. I'm so scared.

Kk getting teary, gg.

♥ Genevieve

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your crush

Hey crush,

Fucking, why is your ex-girlfriend so pretty. It's kinda random to open a letter just like that, but oh my gosh, I'm just saying, your ex is like the cutest girl I've ever seen in real life. Okay, but we'll never talk about how pretty she is ever again unless I mention her, or else I'll get jealous, kthx. Anyway, ever since we ever started talking, we immediately got along. I haven't had a big fight with you ever before, and never when we were just friends. Ever! That was cool. I really like how have gone for us since December. I really miss you right now. Okay, so maybe sometimes we have some problems cuz you like Japanese and I like Korean. That's kinda stupid to have fights over when you say it like that, LOL. Anyway, so .. I like retelling how things happened cuz it's so cool, it's like, drama. LOL.

I met you at .. Um, okay honestly I don't know how we started talking but we did. And we added each other on MSN and everything. Wow, this was actually a really really long time; we started talking in I think winter 2008. At least winter 2008, because I remember you were hanging around my group once and I was in winter uniform, and it was raining, and I was with my ex so yeah, I know it was winter '08. Anyway, I remember how you told me your stupid-ass joke about the guy who wanted to find out what that sound was so he became a monk and prayed his ass off. LOL. And I remember when you told me, I was in my sister's room. I'm pretty sure I was in my sister's room, anyway, but I can't think why I was there. I remember I was on the crappy laptop that we don't use anymore, as well. Umm .. Oh wow, I remember how your font used to be dark blue, not light blue. LOL. And your hair used to be dyed like brown. And I remember how you used to want me to say something in Canto cuz I never would, lol. And omg, I think you wanted us to take us to that place where you go there and it's like a competition kinda thing, and it's like they give you a massive bowl of ramen and if you eat it all within an hour and finish the soup and everything then you get it for free and if not then it's like $50? Yeah! LOL, you wanted to go. :p I remember there were times when we didn't talk to each other. Like, we just didn't. Just drifted and then like few weeks or months later we'd start talking again and we'd become really close friends again and talk for ages. I remember staying up till like 1 or 2am with you once, even though I told my stupid ex that I was gonna go off soon, at like 11:30pm, lol.

-- 11:38pm: Kk, a note, this is really long --

Anyway, whatever. I liked talking to you, though. Always. I remember when you liked me, even though I liked someone else, you still gave me advice and told me what to do. I'm sorry I kinda might've flirted with you at that time, like okay yeah I did flirt with you, but I even so, I always thought it was fun talking to you, and I used to stay up really late, talking to you on MSN. Okay that actually makes me sound like a bitch. :I But I know you're not annoyed about that or anything. And just saying, at that time I wasn't even sure if you actually liked me or not. LOL. But I used to ask you, like, if you were gonna ask your crush out and stuff and yeah LOL. I really really really wish I hung around with you more when you were still in school. :( You used to show me card tricks and poker chip tricks. OMG, I even remember once, we webcammed with each other so you could show me a card trick, LOL. But really, I wish I hung around with you more when you were still in school, but I was scared you thought I was annoying or weird or kept saying 'Hi' and said it too much or something. Honestly, I saw you a lot during school and I don't know if that's cuz you did that on purpose, cuz seriously sometimes I saw you heaps right, but I didn't say Hi cuz I didn't know if you saw me so like yeah. Cuz SERIOUSLY, I used to see you heaps. :o And I remember how you used to have your orange folder. And you broke like all the uniform rules. Omg, and I remember when before you had an earring, you were telling me about how you had to ask your mum and convince her and everything. :) And you used to wear your white headphones, and I borrowed them like 2 or 3 times and .. I borrowed your iPod once! It was so dead, lol. And I remember that time like the first time I hugged you, it was at the canteen and I was with Vanessa, and I'm like, Hmm I'm meant to hug him, and she's like, Then go! He likes it from behind ;) and I'm like, Ummm okay then, LOL, so I hugged you from behind and I think you were talking to Adam or someone at the time and they're like, Who's this and you're like, It's my sis and yeah. :D And oh yeah, you used to have an LG Viewty and I was jealous LOL. But I remember when you actually left school .. We weren't talking. It was one of the periods when we weren't talking. I don't know why, though, it was so stupid. :( I wish I talked to you then. But on the Year 12 Final Assembly day, I got a photo with you and Hanson and Danica. Or something like that. But I remember it was then or around then when you met Kim. Oh my gosh, I remember how you had trials, and I told you I'd come around before your exam and give you a hug and say good luck! And I remember once, when I didn't, I texted you good luck, keke. I remember how you told me download Kuai Le Chong Bai and I ended up liking it. But what I really remember, like a lot, is how much we used to text. We were like, non stop texting. :D I liked that, though. We used to talk a lot on MSN, and when I had to go off, we'd text .. Like, text a lot so that I'd actually fall asleep texting you kinda thing. :o But even at school we'd text. Or after school. Or something like that, but I remember texting you on a Wednesday at sport and on the bus when you did bad in your phys trial exam. D:

You called me on December 23rd 2009. I started liking you. Again? I don't know. December 2009 .. I started 2010 liking you. Not going out yet. But anyway, we started talking again in December, just like how we used to. Like, talked heaps. :D You became single again sometime in January I think, and I remember the first time we went out. Okay I don't really remember it in full detail. I kinda do. I miss that feeling, when you find out your crush likes you back and your heart is like mega racing and you just can't believe it. We used to stay up on the phone late, every night. Every night since December. And lol, since December, I don't think I've slept before like 12:30 - 1am, unless I was sick. I remember when I used to like you, though .. I remember how I was so fricken happy every time I talked to you, and when I was on the phone with you I couldn't help but smile. Like, smile for the whole conversation. When we got off the phone, I'd hug my pillow to sleep, but hug it in the way that you would hug your boyfriend to sleep. Not like how you'd hug a teddy bear, cuz if I hugged my boyfriend the way I hugged my teddy bear then .. Okay maybe it's kinda similar, BUT THE POINT IS THAT I HUGGED MY PILLOW LIKE, IT WAS NEXT TO ME AND MY ARM WAS ON TOP OF IT AROUND THE PILLOW WHICH IS REPRESENTING MY BOYFRIEND'S WAIST. LOL. Omg it looks like it means that my pillow = boyfriend. Okay fuck dat, LOL.

Anyway, crush. Boyfriend. I love you. :D I'm glad our fights don't last long -- no more than an hour or two because things are always resolved before the end of the phone call. You buy me toys to hug to sleep at night. You made me a book for my birthday card. You bought me an Adidas hoodie and a Mooks jumper and strawberry Pocky for my birthday. You buy me little things like Pocky. You visit me after school when we can't see each other. I really like making things for you LOL. And I liked it when I watched you read the really long note I wrote you. That note that you weren't meant to find but you found it. Like you looked so happy when you were reading it, aww. :D And oh my gosh, I just remembered how me, you and Vanessa used to 3-way and you told us stupid jokes and scary stories and Vanessa was brushing her teeth so hard she was bleeding, LOL. Remember how we'd talk about living together and what things would be like if we were living together? And in the future, we'll have a nice house and we'll have a nice garden and we'll have a pet cat and a pet dog? And we'd full talk about what kinda cat we'd want, LOL, like whether it'd be an indoors only kinda cat and what colour and stuff? :D When you were going back to uni, I was scared things were going to change and I'd be sad. But things stayed the same. Things got better. We've become so much closer and do stupid things together, and I love it when you tell me that your sister or mum said something about me, like they like my legs or something LOL omg. :D

There are so many things I want to do with you (not sexual, I'm trying to be like really sensitive sounding LOL) and so many places I wanna go with you. We've made so many plans, I just really hope that one day, we'll go Ikea together. One day, I'll surprise you and come over, and we'll cook something. I want it to be like not awkward between me and your sister, but both of us are shy so um it kinda isn't working out, lol, I have no idea what I would say to her if I came over, even though I wanna talk to her more. But I just think it'll be really cool if me, you and your sister could just hang around and it wouldn't be weird and stuff. Um, I'm kinda scared of your brother. LOL. But it'd be really cool if things weren't awkward between me and him, but all I've said to him is, Hi :) cuz he said Hey to me, or something. LOL. And I'm still kinda like a bit scared of your mum, well like, not scared but my Canto really sucks so I don't wanna be like just me talking to her cuz I don't know what to do if she says something I don't understand or know what to say to, which is like really likely to happen. :( I hope my parents like you. I don't know if they do or not. But things will be okay, and you'll come over more and they'll get over things and they'll like you. :D

FUCK THIS IS SO LONG OH MY GOSH, MAN. Okay. You're so cute, lol, and you're the nicest guy to me, ever. You're so sweet -- you wake me up every morning; you don't break promises cuz they mean something to you; you call me every night because you care about our streak since December; you make me the happiest girl ever when I'm with you. And I love it how we react to things the same way, or do the same things. Like today, we both tried saying sorry at the same time. Like I'm not joking, I was texting you and was just gonna press send and you called me. And that other time when you tried calling me but my phone was busy cuz I was trying to call you. I really really miss you right now. This is gonna sound kinda gay but like .. Idk, I just wanna make all this stuff for you. Like art-y stuff. It's not like I would just feel like making shit like that out of nowhere. It's not like I would even look at how to make that stuff, or look at blogs with that kinda stuff, out of nowhere. I just want to see you happy, and I want to see you happy with/because of me. :D I want you to be as happy as you make me. I love you so much.

54 days is nothing compared to forever.

♥ Genevieve

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your best friend

Dear best friend,

I'm not sure how long I've known you for. Okay actually, I've known you since year 5. I don't think we were that close when we first met and became friends but I don't really remember cuz it was such a long time ago. Anyway, I guess a lot has happened for our friendship over the years. I'm sorry for the things I did in year 6. When you mentioned it in maths some time last week, it was just kinda awkward and I don't know what I'm meant to say. I hope you're not still holding that against me, even though we seem pretty close? I hope you're not like, deep down thinking, 'This girl is the nastiest skank bitch I've ever met. Do not trust her. She is a fugly slut!' or anything. LOL. Year 7 and 8 were still really up and down, but more in the first year. I remember when you wanted a pet rat in year 7, and every day for like a month you mentioned how much you wanted it and I remember I got really annoyed and sick of it and yeah, we weren't really that good as friends back then. I remember how we used to have fights about really small things, but we'd not talk for the rest of the day. I remember when there was that 'super cute guy at tae kwon do that you were going to talk to' but you never really talked to him. I remember how you would complain about how you didn't talk to him after every time you saw him, and you talked about how he had like two older brothers that were black belt, or something? I don't remember that part well. I remember how I copied off you in the ag half yearly exam in year 7. Something about the chicks and their brooding thing. Thank you! :D I remember I got like 41 1/2 or something like that for ag.

In year 7 and 8, we were in the exact same classes for everything. We used to sit together in maths in year 8, and I remember that it was that year when we stopped fighting a lot and got heaps closer. OMG, remember that time when you said 8 + 6 = 12, or something? I told you it was 14, and you were like, NO, IT'S 12! And then you worked it out and yeah it was 14, LOL. And I remember when you arm wrestled Chung in maths and beat him. And how we used to draw on the table for maths, every time we had Mr Hundt, and we drew a stickman and drew a circle where the body part was and said he was pregnant and looked like a rat. We were so scared when he caught us, and I remember he read that part, how it said it was pregnant and that he was a dickhead. And oh my gosh, I totally remember how you drew a little book and it was called The Book of Dogs or something like that, and you put Ms Biczo there, LOL. Year 8 was really fun. OH MY GOSH, and I remember that time in year 8 I think or maybe year 7, when Kevin Sivieng and Kevin Pech and someone else that was probably Ryan was like, Hey can we borrow your bag, we're gonna swap it with Thang's cos it's the exact same and see if he notices, LOL. OH MY GOSH, and I remember your parties! Your party in year 7, and then 8 and 9 and I'm waiting for the one this year.

Anyway, in terms of friendship, we've really gone through a lot. Over the years at high school, I think you were the one that started the whole, Genevieve is lesbiano with Vanessa thing, LOL. But it's kinda developed now, and it's been established that no, I'm not lesbiano. LOL. Before you left for Korea and Japan, we even had our best friend hug on the train. LOL. To be honest, when you said, OMG I LOVE YOU! after I told you I could come over on your birthday, I was like, shocked. LOL. Totally did not expect you of all people to say that. But I'm really glad we've become a lot closer. We're like, maths buddies, LOL and we've actually been sitting next to each other since like year 7. :o Except in year 7 you and Vivian kept changing, I think.

You're really smart. :I Like in everything, you do really well. I was thinking just yesterday about our group and like, Wow we're pretty smart, considering what other grades used to say about us, and I realised that only a few of us got high 90's for our half yearlies, and you were one of them. I also think it's actually really really cool how you're learning Korean. Like seriously, I am so jealous; I wish I could speak and write and read Chinese and Japanese and Korean and all these other languages, but oh, have I been doing anything about it? Nuu. :( I just found this on Tumblr, and I thought you'd like it so yeah, for you. ^^

I don't know when we said this, but we promised each other, I think in year 9, that we'd be bridesmaids at each others weddings. I really hope you'll be there. When we're both in uni, I really hope we still talk and stuff. Maybe we'll go to the same uni. I'm not sure what you wanna be right now, but according to Vanessa, in our future empire that our group will create, you're a Korean popstar and you're our spokesperson in Korea. And you will advertise us. LOL. Nah okay but seriously talking, yeah, I love you. And I would die for you too. :D

♥ Genevieve

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30 day letter challenge? Maybe I shouldn't do this since I've got work and assessments over the next month, but whatever, cuz I was considering doing this like last week. Btw I'm dropping my Project Day Zero, cuz some stuff I wrote was like really really stupid. LOL.

Letter 1 : your best friend

letter 2 : your crush

letter 3 : your parents

letter 4 : your sibling (or closest relative)

letter 5 : your dreams

letter 6 : a stranger

letter 7 : your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

letter 8 : your favorite Internet friend

letter 9 : someone you wish you could meet

letter 10 : someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

letter 11 : a deceased person you wish you could talk to

letter 12 : the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

letter 13 : someone you wish could forgive you

letter 14 : someone you’ve drifted away from

letter 15 : the person you miss the most

letter 16 : someone that’s not in your state/country

letter 17 : someone from your childhood

letter 18 : the person that you wish you could be

letter 19 : someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

letter 20 : the one that broke your heart the hardest

letter 21 : someone you judged by their first impression

letter 22 : someone you want to give a second chance to

letter 23 : the last person you kissed

letter 24 : the person that gave you your favorite memory

letter 25 : the person you know that is going through the worst of times

letter 26 : the last person you made a pinky promise to

letter 27 : the friendliest person you knew for only one day

letter 28 : someone that changed your life

letter 29 : the person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to

letter 30 : your reflection in the mirror

Just saying, I think a lot of people are going to overlap. Hmm, yeah they are. Kk guys, start tomorrow, or ASAP. Hopefully I go on the computer every day for the 30 days, right? :o DAMMIT. Eugene decided to do the 30 day letter challenge just yesterday. And wow, new layout looks crazy weird .. Lol.